Chris Cornell has died. I don’t have many words other than there will always be memories of my youth tied to the sound of his voice.
Being a native of Washington and a short drive from Seattle, I spent a bit of time at “shows” during my late teen/very early 20 and will never forget the first time I saw Soundgarden at Lake City Concert Hall…probably summer of 1990 (maybe 1989, it’s a bit blurry lol) His voice…omg.
RIP Chris Cornell
(alternate title, I’m human, not perfect and will occassionally I screw up too)
I guess you could say I gave in to my inner fat girl this weekend…or really mostly yesterday.
Saturday night I did have about 2 cups of homemade popcorn with butter…not sure if that little snack pulled the trigger or what.
Yesterday my husband and I were out visiting several boutiques and antique stores (so we actually did a lot of walking) but then we, and I mean we, not just he decided to have pizza…real pizza with crust. So between lunch time and bedtime I ate 4 slices of the pizza…3 of them I ate most of the crust, 1 I did not eat the crust. I know it’s not a total derailment, but I feel guilty.
I know that pizza with crust is not right for my sleeved life. But I did it. It’s done. Today I’m leaving that guilt behind me and getting right back on high protein low carb. Protein coffee for breakfast, and I’m going to do shakes only until dinner and then I’ll have my usual 2 oz steak and a salad! I’ll wait until my system is clear of this weekend debauchery before I do a weigh in.
I felt very self deprecating for a little bit. It was like after all that I’ve gone through since starting this journey late 2014 to now went right in the crapper… of course it hasn’t as long as I don’t keep going down that path of ‘Pizza de Resistance’! Going to put my big girl pants on and get over it right now!
It’s not easy being sleeved in a world full of people who can’t relate. The first confession always has to be to ourselves. No excuses, moving forward on track!
I do this instead of that! Instead of Tortilla or Taco shells my husband and I use Romaine lettuce…he’s never been happier too, since he can have an extra Taco or two just by eliminating that high carb/calorie tortilla! What do you do “instead of” since having had Bariatric Surgery or if you’ve not had Bariatric Surgery just because you are trying to eat cleaner/healthier food? Ready, go!
While perusing the WLSFA site and facebook I came across a video they shared from Dr. Duc Vuong, The Sleeve Support Surgeon. This video “Sleeve Signals: Signs You Need To Stop Eating” has excellent “reminder” info in it for anyone who’s had WLS.
Keeping “fatbrain” satisfied one meal at a time with discipline lol!
Some days I feel mentally ravenous. Other days not so much. On the days when “fatbrain” has me reeling with head hunger and I begin to long for the days of cookies past I have to do something about it…to keep myself from going off the wagon, or down the hill to a bakery!
Initially after I had my surgery I literally survived on Quest Bars… first 1/4 of a bar at a time, then half, then a whole bar…and then I’d had so many Quest Bars that I couldn’t do it anymore and I stopped having Quest Bars. I hadn’t really had cravings or head hunger until winter hit hard and we were indoors and bored this 2016/2017 winter.
I began experimenting with coconut flour banana peanut butter muffins and other low net carb “goodies” that would satisfy my “fatbrain” head hunger. Those too got old and fairly quickly. While they have good fiber they still have too many carbs to be partaken of on a regular basis.
I also was tired of the same old protein day after day…I’d started out with Premier but after 9 months was tired of it so put that on the back shelf until recently when I found that I was finally able to order the Caramel and Banana flavors on Costco.com. So the old became the new again. And get this, Costco has a very Quest Bar like protein bar that comes in “cookie dough” and “brownie” flavor.
Color me happy! One of the protein packed bars cut into 4 and either nuked on reduced power for about 35 seconds or baked in the oven at 350 for 3 minutes per side is a warm, yummy very cookie like treat for “fatbrain” and gives my head hunger the satisfaction that it needs and keeps me from going off the deep end and driving to said nearest bakery!
(to bake in the oven I nuke the bar for a few seconds to soften it, make 4 balls and press them flat on parchment on a cookie sheet. Bake for 3 minutes, turn over and bake for 3 more minutes. YUMMY!)
…Tiny dress! Just saying 😉
Side by side before VSG August 2015 / After VSG April 2017.
I’ve been saving left ankle real estate for years for a tattoo I’ve had in my head for some time. I did not want to get it until I’d earned the Skinny Ankle Award though!
It hurt like hell getting it, and it hurts like hell today (fire and ice) but it was beautifully done by a skilled professional so it’s going to be awesome when it’s healed (if I do say so myself!)